So here's how things goes , it seems like this few day it kept on raining so it's agood thing . Then went out with Simon and get to know him er... his alright i guess. So somehow i felt bad and upset cause i miss kian but just angry with him for the moment . He stll text and misses me alot so that made my day :) but with simon the other hand his a nice guy , fun to talk with , laught alot but sensitive in heart lead to misunderstanding and unrelevant small arguement and it's only been like 3 days with him and things going bitter side . He does call and text me but it just felt different when i with kian i guess . However i try to see how things process further cause i'm still unsure about himself as a person , i'm about to expereience the negative side of him but looking at the small picture of him it look quite nasty . Well noone perfect but it doesn't stop me from trying mybest to understand him i guess , everyone has thier own flawless and i have to accept that even i myself made lots of mistakes and intend to be silly at times not knowling hurt someone . I apologies thought my wrong doings , 2011 is much different cause i wanted tobe someone whose more open in a sense of not being so over paranoid , let have more trust and also ambitious for my future . Just today i log in to Firendster for after so donkey years i realised how much i've grown over the past years . When you start to grow maturely you seem to think differently and with every problem you would try to resolve it instead of letting it hanging and builts up. I, myself plead guilty for not being honest ever since i experience pain and lots hurt .The only person i've trust is myself and my uncle . i have alot of bad habits that i can't deny some are just atrociously bad hahas .. but in a process of recovery. Now it's the best time for me to make alot of mistakes and learn from it that's the only way i would grow to a much better and resilent person . Making the best out of each day and feeling the belonging in life , thinking positive and accept ownself weakness and good points would take you far . I'm just waiting for the call or email to take my extrance exams then soon i'll be having auditions but during my spare time i got bored because blame it myself that i've turn abit lazy mentally so i decided to draw and do something that can help me motivate myself not be lazy bum . Praticing my voice , doing some arts and also alot of writing , even reading . Future is set is all up to me to make it happen for good.
When all ends fail , don't lose hope
Stand up and try again.
God bless and Nights!
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