We run the night!

After celebrating baby's mum bdae , went out the next day for a bestfriend outting with fai fai then later baby join us .. fai was buying gift for his mom birthday this sunday :) , spend time with boobear some place for us time then off back home . Tomorrow me and boobear going to apply job , hopefully everything turn out good . Hwatting !! :) I love my boobear !

2012

Yes yes is kinda late for me to post any New years shit but yeah after a long days not posting any kind of shit , i finally gotta touch the comp and post something . Lately been working hard , partying , porning with my girl and what else celebrating the new years with my friends and baby .Sebbie went back to Melbourn , some arguement happen between me and baby but all settle . Just finding a job that has good effing pay and flexibility in time (Office hours).. Pray and hope , guess what shit happen but we gotta suck it up and move on pointless sucking up on something ... I guess noone is perfect right ? One point of the time we feel hopeless and lost , gotta keep our head up high and move on . Believing on ownself is important .. Ciao ciao..

Sick days

So today i am sick , boobear so sweet for feeding me chicken porridge even though she said she wanted to cook for me but in the end of the day mummy the cook for me instead ... so they say dot dot dot dot the thoughts matters HAHA! :)
Just a normal comman flu, somehow my baby has fingers issues she get paranoid went my fingers start playing the " move like jagger anthem " Phys co but i love her !! ok la tomorrow busy day luckily tomorrow im off so i can go collect my checked , see this fucking starhub bill thingy and off to see fai fai ... ciaoooooo

New change me

Oh fuck after so long of M.I.A ing from writing , i finally get to retrieved back the blogger . So its been 3 days back to my 21 th birthday :D as usual it was blast sat party then sun bbq thanks to all my slutsarmy and my girlfriend love ya loads oh yea my bestfriends too reffering to si hui and fai fai of course . Yes things would probably change now its time to grow up and throw the past behind and look ahead to new brighter future ... Balaimos people wohooo :D!!!

Love is a Suicide

What can i say , things start to change a little .. it felt like little salt fallen on the wound , so painful .. All i can do is wait and see if it's getting better or worse .. My head playing with me or it meant to to hurt this much , shut up brain shut up .. all i can do is hope for the best !

Overprotected

I don't know what i should feel , it seems it's been hard and difficult for me to show my love to anyone . How and how i would be the cause of their shame , how and how i'm the reason to be blame . Certain things are meant to be kept hidden , when would i find freedom to love without people judging me , saying things that really does not concern them . I hate it , i hate this feeling being said about my past , getting scolded and being blame for causing embrassment to the family . So many times i though of just killing myself so that i won't be a bother to them cause they making me feel guilty and regret living in this fuck up world. Would i truly find happiness or would be stuck here as their baby girl , sometimes it's not fair . I guess i could never find peace in my life , i would just be unhappy, stuck and lock up . God , why are you playing with my feelings? I don't know what i should do , and i feel that crying about it is pointless . I'm trying my best to keep the balance with my life , my love and my family . But how and how i'm just hurting them , how i wish i could just dissapear so that they don't need to worried and make me feel like a big FUCKING embarassment to them . :-( I'm sorry for being the greatest dissapointment you ever had !

Phucket Trip still far far away but ca save alot money to relax and shopping most of all spending my time with my baby . After getting paid i'm gonna get i phone 4 with baby , do me hair, and buying couple ring :D .. little things we could do .. I hope my baby would get well soon Ciao !