Christmas holidays was awsome ;) club alot and going to this that party some party i didn't go cause i'm super exhausted but anyways merry christmas you guys .. :D can't wait to watch movie with my eshgh (love) and enjoy new year wohooooo!

Dam shag , clumsiness has took it toll on me. Great i sprain my ankle and it hurt badly T_________________T resting at home hopefully it recover on wed before i go work gods!

There's many ways to improvise, it's all start with " YOU".
Tomorrow i've gotta wake up early and gotta work had to memories everything back and soon meet kian on the weekends or so for an outting . School starting soon after the holidays and i really can't wait for everything to fall in its place . Always think positive and take things easy , better to see the real picutre and surroundings that we are still fortunate then someone else who are in more need . :D

Nights and God bless!

Everybody is given opportunity even choices in thier life .Either way it's whether we want to do it or not, Little bit of courage and step even work done would make it possible. So i skip skip skip , sit up sit ups sit ups, doing some critical exercises but it's worth it for myself .

It was a awsome movie , simply magnefic hahas especially the killer itself with alot of suspend 4/5 :) wanted watch "let me in" :) soooon hola!~

Gonna watch a movie called " Take my soul " late evening later ith Kian.
So yea hope it's a nice movie :)

For the past few weeks it kept on raining non stop .. going to do something that i'm best at dissapearring i need to focus on what i want to persue it i'm sorry guys , just keep updates on my blog . I'll come back to new and better person :)
Cyas~!

Whether you love me or love me not is your choice . I gone tru alot with you and what given is yours to keep , What i give is sincere from the bottom of the heart.

Addicted to only girl by rihanna :)

Medi, pedi , mask, warm up nd party party party tonite :) till 6 am.. Holla!

Happy bdae my deareat sihui hugs and kisses!

Got addicted watching Personal taste korean drama :D!

I'm applying to Private school tomorrow for the subjects i'll be taking and i'm studying japanese and doing alot of things to keep my mind and time preoccupied of course i'll give time with my friends and love ones of course . So here i go my revolution my future .
xoxo SuSu

Thx sebe for a great time erm ..

Didn't expect that things would be fun and wild on my bdae hahas . Revolution after this i've become bulletproof. I want to be happy , happiness is not easy to find but if it's temporary or stupid i'll just take it for the fun of living . :)

i did it . i've done sobering and sad . Today my bdae 13 nov is abrand new day brand new person and happy one . The past is left behind goodbye bad memories i bid u a big farewell and thanks :) alright later gonna celebrate with them excited cause i'll be the princess today holla!!

Dear god ,
I'm really terrified i really am . i just have the feeling that is bad and something gonna happen to me . I'm really afraid but y am i doing this to myself knowing i'm giving in to danger . Please show me the sign and dun make me regret it . I'm going out and it's achoice whether i'm losing my mind now . $ more hours would be the last hours now . T-T

Seriously piss off.. i said my bdae is coming is on the 13 nov not the freaking 10 nov waddup with that. gosh some people are so irritating haha! :) everything is plan out gonna party party party !

Yesterday late evening when to watch two movies with jay MEGAMIND and PARANOMAL ACTIVITY 2 , stay up so late till 6 plus to 7 then when off back home and get some shut eyes. He is a really sweet guy , first date :) hahas we laugh alot alot and it was nice . But now so tired not enuff sleep one after other people rang my phone geezzz i'm tiring to sleep ppl i'm so gonna get eye bags D:.. well head off to rest before my head turn harewire uhhhh! waiting daddy cook food eat. I guess everything is fallen to pieces for me . After the suffering i finally see happiness in it. I thank you god , all that's left for me to look for a bright future. :)
God bless

Surprising ! just today late evening my dad called and ask me what i wan for birthday present , well this was first time he asked hahas i didn't know what i wanted and the most incredible part was he said " Tell me cause i've been trying to find u a gift from plaza singapura to centre point , so do you wan Gucci bag , guess bag so?"
Hahas wow dad gucci bag !! hahas my dad is so funny.. just to humor him i said i wanted an LV bag and he literally when there to check out for me so sweet :D but hais that quite too much i rather buy it myself so i told him give me money for shopping so i can decide what to buy for myself :)

:D Happy deepavali guys !
Best part in life is we get to choose it and live it as much as possible. It's never too last for you to start brand new . Counting days to my bdae , photoshoot and christmas and next yr back to studies for a degree HOLLAH! :)

it really hurts..so sad to know that even though how hard you've tried and you have sacrificed a lot for him, but still he does wrong...and yet, you will see yourself still waiting for him....that's true love....my gosh..i'm very touch... :(

-29bluefairy



Saw this post ..

I don't wan to expect much for my birthday but i decided i want to celebrate it not for the sake of family or friends but for myself . Celebrate the day i was in the world i should be thankful for that i stayed in this world for 20 yrs of my life . Life has it's up and down but that's how it goes. People who met and apart from i would always remembered and cherish. I love every single one of you guys , it doesn't matter what it is or how i felt cause LOVE comes in any shape and sizes . Love does conquer all cause the reason that we were brought together as one . For that I Love You!

The rest of the pic's Halowwen Night out!

HAd blast at Play today halloween night dam full pack ! But awsome but the shit part i only have 4hrs of sleep dam and it 6:37 am ... crap gonna wash off make up and go sleep . some of the pic i took the rest sebe will load up this afternoon. off to sleep...fucking sober!

Going to PLAY tonite and dance till dawn gods wanted to see some chicka and Hunkkas there =D! Holla~!

Sweet and cute at the same time :D
Furkan from turkey .. yes yes cute guy know him :)

2 weeks 2 days to my birthday how exciting :D

Bruno Mars - Grenade + DOWNLOADLINK

Over joyed , happy and overly mad ! Wow the day can't get any better =D well after work today when off to meet andi's friend to butterfactory place was dam lame so decided to go off to PLAY!!! with andi awsome places alot of hot guys so meet up with two guys while dancing one is sie and simon =D sie is hot hot hot yea he got a thing for me but hais i'm there for a night fun so dance with him all night long with awsome dj playing awsome music that blow my mind ~ yeah guess who i saw today alot of familliar faces especially SEbestian hotty now =D yea and some of old HIHs people frm 2 yrs back grad's . Had tequila shots and heniken my first taste of it =D suberp... feeling kinda tipsy and sleepy 5 hrs of sleep then later head off OC to work =D yay me . Soon maybe next 2 weeks gonna go party again yeah awaits my bdae wohooo Nights Biatchies ! :D Holla!!!

It doesn't matter what you said about me or judge me for you think i could be cause in the end of this road only i can decide what's best for me and who i am capable to be and also do!

Fun day night out with them ! hahas Three monkey hurray!

I'm fucking half drunk now , it was a hell fun night out.. First when to three monkeys and enjoyed laughter then when to zirca next rebel and dance my heart out got drunk wohooo awsome !!! Next week gonna go st james on fri hoseh!~

Jake: Nice is nice ..
Me : My friend say cannot see..
Jake: Can you see it?
Me: ya duh but when i take cannot see it.. D:
Jake : Aiyo You ar as long u can see it u feel happy that's important , why you care what ppl say .
Me: I want re dye dunnoe i see first D:
Jake: You are always beautiful to me just the way you are..
Me: hahas ! Lousy ar u still that from Bruno mars lyric !!
Jake : :D..
( Cheeky smile)
Convo dam epic .. Finally i found outfit to wear gods for sat .. So excited like mad going off with fai fai , his army friends (Don't ask me why i agreed to go with them also), not sure who else going .. sian need to rush after work on sat to meet them .. Hoseh
Tomorrow gonna go out have fun and rock out and get drunk and wasted :D

Nights ppl!

Alright , tomorrow i had prepared myself to dye my hair then do my eyebrow , shopping for bdae present and go k box with my baby of course companying me all the way .. so yea would take pic after the dye proceeding hahas!

Nights!

If it's from you , i don't mind hurting because of love..

Nest sat gonna party after my work to power house with fai fai and his army friends ..alright ! outfit i need to shop so tuesday going shopping , watching movie , and k box with vicky honey then go home watch jelita! WEdnesday meeting andi girlfren and andi for k box and eat alot alot hahaha .. on fri day meeting si hui.. =D alot of things to do.. yay so exciting can't wait!

Decided i'm not gonna talk about it or speak a word about it. Your call

ohhh ! ahhh! uhhh! um... lolsOnly girl in th world - rihanna AWSOME!!!!

Feeling kind of letagic and sick .. gods my hair am i getting hair falls T-T , kinda sleepy and restless . Head hurts on and off now i need rest more rest .. shit if this keeps up i might as well drop dead sooner or ltr . Cherish every moment every day every sec even mins no time left

Give me one day to know you, few days to like you, few months to love ,a few mins later to hurt you but it took me a life time to forget you . So if you think that it's harder for you to forget me think again. I guess once you create smth there's no way out but left memories, So it took me awhile just to hate you for sake to forget. If it brings you happiness i'm willing to let go sake of love.

I just wish you all the happiness , doing what i had to do to let go of you because i love you so much it seems the best thing for me . It's time for me to dissappear again , I love you mushroom be happy always.

Beautiful and instant pix taken with the proloriad :D

Cheers!
<3 Yvoone

Feeling upset with things . Anyways tomorrow gonna st8en and dye with highglight i guess. So how things turn out xD

Wow another weirdo appear asking me alot of nonsense just wan get lucky with me PLEASE!!! in what of the motherly earth thinks that i'm a flinger or desprately need to get laid . I'm not in to it and i happy being single. No drama mama and no complication so just Fck off k disgusting idiots

I Love You

I really miss but at the same time i'm a afraid of you. It felt like loving you from heart helps me to move on. But all i can do be a good friends it's enuff to forgive and let you go . Memories won't fade it would be hidden in the scar. (:

Simply love the song the vid ..

Bust your window - jasmine Sullivian (:

MILEY CYRUS - SCARS LYRICS

MILEY CYRUS - SCARS LYRICS

Harlo! gods i'm getting sicker vomit like hell ..
Anyways gotta 2 more off day rest wa my body over exhaust and it's too weak already...
12:16 am ...
I haven remove make up ..
Need shower tremove make up ..
Mask myself than go rest ..
Tomorrow need msg dar dar than later on
Going out with me , em and hubby together ..
Wa where's my rest i need rest T-T Help...!!!

Ok nites eevryone!!

Christina Perri - Jar Of Hearts lyrics

No I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I would have missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are
Who do you think you are
Who do you think you are



Lyrics | Christina Perri lyrics - Jar Of Hearts lyrics

Recently this photo was taken when i was bored waiting for jason and kev to stop hogging the counter computer , purposely counting everything so slow . I'll kill them hahas(just joking) .. anyways later gotta go prepared and sing K wib them than go back home watch my fav drama than maple time .. hahaha..


God bless ...
Dadah...

When everything is happy dendy a disaster came out of nowhere and destroyed the perfect picture that i created for 2 yrs, somehow my father thinks that he and that lady living under one roof with us is a great help . They moved in one day and it seems akward and werdness in the room. well i came back home i miss drama and actions that happen between mamu and her hahas . It's like everyone dissapear when i reach home so quiet and peaceful. As long as she don't get in my way or let her see me it's ok . I can handle it and have self control but don't cross the line i guess.
Change topic , anyways tomorrow tues gonna Kbox with emily , my dearest god daughter
and my hubby , 4 of us power us for beiber fever and sings like loonetic hahahas ..


God bless
see ya !!! hwating!!!

love this song ;)

i'm working with jet today.. by acting goofy and bored to death. Maybe i'll meet sh along with my darls been waiting for me to finish work. browsing around and keep me company at my work place .. isn't it sweet . Man having bad cramps i want go home sleep and rest still haven eat medicine later must remind me ..


Tata!

Gonna go Msia city sQ with my baby and the rest of them still need comfirm , of cou. :) wanted buy something from there eat seafood and enjoyed myself seeing sunset with my darling . Anyways lately i've been busy working and resting from my sick period ... gosh i seriously need more work hours and need bigger pay hahahas ..


God bless dearest !

Anyways wanna congrats emily for having a boyfriend :D , tomorrow is gonna be fun day. Me and my hubby would picked emily up after school to K box isn't it exciting of course em and me would dominate the place by dancing and singing like fools while my baby look at me acting goofy . hahas.. Other than putting a mask for myself just relaxing and have a good night rest . Ciao ciao..



God blessy ,
SuSu :D

Things have been weird lately with alot of nightmares and some horror jap or korean horror flick demon appearing in my room. Neitherless everything is awsome and great at work , other than getting promoted as a supervisor and been transfed to Oc . Anyways i miss jes jes but here working with faz is great too but missing the girl time and chatty moments . Hey i do have chatty biatch talks with faz too hahahas... Can't believe i'm using comp at work place well it's quiet here. Anyways i better log out before things get out of hands hahas :)

Te amore

It's started to heal every part of the broken pieces is mending itself as the time and days passes by . I'm starting to feel what's the joyest of happiness. Well i'm gonna be promoted to supervisor soon praise the god for helping me. I'm glad his back , after 2 years of dissappearing things would work out and be better . Other than shopping at zara , forever 21 and all those branded goods , a ring that been bought is beautiful as i been expected . thanks i guess a token of his heart would be a token i would kept . :) How lucky a girl like me to recieved adiamond ring that cost really expensive, very lucky !

All this materialistic stuff doesn't matter,
as long you stay here by my side 4 ever,
That's counts .

(Riding Solo - Jason Derulo) xD

Stranger's on the train ride

IT's ironically weird to meet a stranger on a train and end up talking to them like there's nobodys bussiness knowing his birthday and somehow meeting me was his persent .Showing his move on cards trick just to impress a girl like me and rap speacially for me . It's quite funny things like this happen , but whaerver happen just dn't be caught up in a web . This guy is from Uk and his arab , he hit on me while i came back from work . It seems weird and strange but partly it excites me that he approach me . His fallen for me but i not even close fallen for him, his going back Uk sooner . It didn't hurt because it was an entertaining wonderment for me . :D

Sauhel
(Looks like david blaine + david craig)

Sometime we'll meet weird type of people,
End up making alot of new friends,
Don't get easily distracted or assume your in love,
In the end of the day you would suffer by getting hurt,
So just live life to the fullest and don't think that you need deprately for love,
When the time comes you'll the perfect fit for yourself and it's very rewarding .

No today i'm sick Nu!!!!! i guess i'm to tired anyways i get some enough rest took the medicine from the doctor gave me and tomorrow would be better . After trm i got to work extra hard to earn for next week sale . Go go go me =)..

10 june

when to watch two movies with mamu..
12 10 ( karate kid)
before ate pasta mania at TM
than watch a 2 hours awsome movie ..
After that
ate and walk around ..
than watch prince of persia..
after that ate at Serect receipy ..
Shopping ..
than go home..

Anyways why now i posted lately been busy with work and a so called miracle happen
after 19 years of my life i found my mom, i get to see her even though it was hard for me to say goodbye for the last time. Yea i had to make a decision and i said this woule be the first and last time i'll be seeing her.. i made that decision. :) anyways trm 12 june gonna meet jes in the morning for breakfast and work .. lala..

today i get to watch "PRINCE OF PERSIA" !!! Awsome movie after a long week of hardwork i get wonderful pay day and enjoy my off day today and toorrow tues.. need some rest and prepared things before wednesday . Erm... working with jason :) and jet hahas... I have the official keys to open shop wish me luck wednesday busy day with tenant coming to pick their stuff than next week need to belanja mamu eat than go watch karate kid with mamu , also go kbox and eat swesen with em.. than also treat sk , sh for meal or something oh yea treat god mummy lucy too ^-^ so busy busy.. i really thank god for giving me the streght and courage to face obsticle and leading me tru each day with his blessing . Yes there are times i felt tired and sick but i stepped up think about others and tell myself to not be lazy and push myself . Thank you god and thanks to people who supportted me and pray for me .. with love sul ^-^ next few month i'lll work extra hard and do well .. =D cha cha neh!!!

"S"... Sauhel?
"L"... Louie?
"F"... Fairoz?
"N"... Nicholas lim layang?
Hahas...?

Is the babies so CUTE!!!

Learning point in life.

I'm starting to learn and understand people who i worked with and in experiences wise in life and love i salute them . I was reffering to my bosses Kevin(except for him not sure yet) , Nic and Jason . Well nic and jason surprise me  with  thier story line in life from there it somehow help me to move on and be happy. Especailly nic he told me in life there's love  but we have to choose someone who makes you happy than suffer for the rest of the life. I have to make my stand and find someone who can love and also makes me happy . At times the past hunt me but when i looked back it became a learning point in life. Atleast i never live a life with regrets of hurting anyone and i can move forward without any hestitation . Previous relationship that i kept so deep in my heart hurt me but that's life , it doesn't mean if you meet that someone even if he loves you but he makes you suffer and took your love for granted it's not worth it at all. Yes love is there but understanding is important , give and take and especially taking responsibility for own action it's majorly important. People judge us with the things we do because the things we do is wrong . We have to accept it and learn , running away is a cowardly actions that only cause you lost and not accepting your wrong doings is all excusses and clinging on to the past that causes you pain and more pain because of the doings of someone who lied , betrayed and irresponsible is bullshit thats was all said by nic one of the boss. He was right , it makes sense . It's pointless to love someone who only care about himself and runway and do the same mistakes over and over again and learn nothing . You would always remember the person you loved because they became the part of your life , the one who made you laugh , cried , hurt and even loved you so much . I have no regrets and i know if in future i'll make a great mom , i didn't live a life hurting anyone but i did my best to love and give my care and heart out. So i'll find my happiness from people who love and care for me because i would not keep any hate or grudges towards anyone or people who been with me because goods things do come to good people and i'll know i would find someone who can give me happiness that i deserve for  19 years of my life . It may take months or even 2years plus a of hurt  but i would be fine with happiness that would last me for me for the rest of my life.I'll keep on learning and feel pain and even fall but it's worth it . I would always remember the past and smile about it because i was not the one hurt anyone so i won't live a life with guilt till the day i die . One day would come and happiness would feel my world :D i'll wait and make a better out of myself.

Last Song Movie

LAST SONG was a breath taking  movie ;) i couldn't stop crying my heart out watching  the movie so meaningful and touchyWell not bad miley bf whose actored with her was hot .. hahas anyways i had an awsome day , atleast i enjoy a beautiful movie..Gotta packed some stuff for trm  , do manicure, upload music to cd for work place and  sleep cuz gonna work early trm ..Dun wan be late .. cuz with boss nic hopefully his not late lols.. ciao ciao

well today i chillax decided to watch movie trm , i'm too darn tired to go out after long working hours . Body to exhausted.. Anyways i was looking some vid in Ytube and found an intersting song by pink , i couldn't help myself to giggling as i read and listen to the lyric . It's quite true sometimes we need a break from the person we care . :D well gonna relax and do some snoozing ADIOS!!

One day without fail we'll laugh of course i was the laughing gas polluting the place .. phrase that my Supervisor Jes love to used "ARe you Crazy?!" hahas than laugh laugh laugh.. morning ate breakfast with her than she had to do alot of "S" work so somehow i had handle sales . i'm really blessed that the god help me in the way to earn myself 800 plus for sale awsome right.. =D hard work do pay off.. Yay !!! off day for two days but poor thing jes i'm not there cause i'm her assistant ( a reliable one of course) ^-^ erm what else nicholas my boss being childish again , desmond was talking to me on the phone of course nic and des was at OC there and i can hear his voice at the background asking me to say "Afternoon Cactus"
Goodnesss!!! It all started with nic calling me i didn't see the time and said wrongly:

Phone rang..

Me: "Good morning Cactus, Whose"s speaking?"
Nic: Oi! It's afternoon la ..
Me: Sorry de didn't see timing
Nic:Say afternoon say afternoon lols
than so on so for..
Another phone called while i serve customer..
Phone rang..
Me:"Good afternoon Cactus"
Des: Sul did you recieve from HQ?
ME : Yea i did..
Nicholas at the background irritate des say afternoon say afternoon ..
lols weird right but overall all nice people , alot of fun and weird but funny people..
well gotta rest alot to do even off still need clean than meet emy and all .. Nights

:) anyways today the whole week working tired leg worn out .. My boss nicholas was nice treat ice cream for hard work .. erm well cuz i'm working and i usually would take breaks for my lunch or either dinner i'll see this guy whose shop name LONDON LONDON, dunnoe why but i'm getting discount there haha just keep smilling at me when he sees me ^-^ lols cute guy .. Tomorrow eating breakfast with jes than do paper work thingy and wohoo finally tues and wed i'm off going watch movie with my darling em , the last song from miley cyrus.. =D lols Nights world world :)

I thought about me and i wanted to buy it .. i deserve some credit for myself ..
Tired is tired but i enjoyed myself everyone being nice and patience to teach me ,
everything been great of course life part but love life not sure .. friends helping me find bf or gf lols .. how silly they are .. yea feeling lonesome and meed some attention i guess =) Anyways i'll just wait for my prince charming appear.. and swept me off my feet .. uh~! cheesy much .. yea i finish readin my book .. now gotta rest got work trm .. it helps me to kill time but not my mind to distracted about things so it takes time for me to breath and search myself to opportunities, i have nothing to lose =)

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Later ..Gonna visit  fai fai after he had an operation and hospitalized on monday...Off course i got to visit him because i was busy working  and today wednesday my off day.1 min .. i feel hungry erm.. what should i eat ..Another min later..Later i deide de.. dots maybe should meet up pals argh!!! i wan sleep so tired but seem to be woken up  by aunty  to iron mua clothes lols..Now..Decided to go sms Baobei sk  than maybe later shower and rest  than go see Fai fai..Laterzzz.. =D

I thank god that i woke up realistic than day dream ab out unrealistic things . :) like i said people know how say but they always end up running away or cover u thier pain. Anyways things gonna change love is everywhere like he told me find a someone who can take care of me , sure i take that risk . Enjoy life and careless abt what people think. only i know the truth , easily to be read like a book.
Well today i made great sales .. my sale 700 plus dollars wohooo ;D thanks god hopefully the end the month get alot commission xD
1 hour ago ...
Finish work meet up with desmond and jas they all company them than went back home..
Later on ...
Could see my fren Rasul working today i guess he not working ( anyways he was my one of my pri school mate recently met after 8 years ^-^)
Than...
tired but still awake gotta meet fai fai and frens his place ..
Now need to sleep before get panda eyes ...

Almost forgot ...
Watched "back up plan "
funny but about commitment and love for a baby.. Some people have no responsibily quite sad i notice but it's okay people like this won't live a happy life.
IF YOU READING THIS NOTE TO SELF , ONE HAS TO KNOW TO TAKE RESPONSIBILY FOR IT'S ACTIONS , SHOULD THROW WORDS AND BE IRRESPONSIBLE BUGGER.
Soon...
Would start dating , boys i'm single lols hahas atleast my fren confess i guess my turn to be out there. A prince for me is there , i never stop believing in love :D i know my beloved baby know the truth . i finally see that i'm not irresponsible mother and in future i would be a wonderfully mom . i saw that.. i don't mind being lied , being hurt or even torn down because i'm being truth to myself , noone can be me , being taken for granted it's ok because it's not my lost is yours seriously i thought abt it and tell myself i can do great things because i'm capable of and i thank all this to god . Atleast i made a different to my life and made promise to my baby i live my life and not living in a lie =D i couldn't careless because ihave the love support and help i needed to walk ahead .

Another day another race :)

Happy Mother's day to all mothers :)
Few hours ago..
When to my god mummy lucy hse and gave her mother's day present hahas a braclet watch i bought my work place
very fancy and nice.
Later after that...
When to mother mary shrine praying and give out roses for her :) sad noone give me mother's day gifts T_T
Anyways working tomorrow, I'm really happy because the place was pack and i sold few cmeras watches , weighing machine
and etc.. All that would add up to my commission and i had alot of fun interacting with the customer.
Working at Cactus make me happy :)
I found out somthing ...
JAson (marketing manager)
Nice guy remind me of josh characteristic... lol girlish and friendly talk too hahas..
Kevin(operation Manager)
Nice guy too, at times hard to communicate because is hard to start a topic to talk about , hahas he remind
me of Nicholas's dad.. lols..
Nicholas( bussiness Manager)
Funny and corky but at times tell lame joke and kiddies sadly could think of anyone like him simply crazy there..
So on so far
JEs my supervisor close to me and everything work out , i got to thank god for guiding me tru my life .
12:58...
Nuuu!!! i gotta bath , wash make up off and early sleep orelse late .. tata nights :}

1:31am..
Today it was a fun day at work of course and didn't know it was kevin( boss) bdae hahas ... Uncle dam old ^-^ Anyways I'm full timer and i pass the test Hurray !!!
Wow tomorrow i start work at 11 am and i just came back frm the bdae party at east coast .. so tiring need sleep need wake up early eat breakfast at KFC first than slowly to my work place .
Meet jes stock up things than mop than do alot things .. Oh yeah sat busy day alot of customer .
Weirdly today FOreigner Group from DUBAI came to our shop to buy few watches hahas i was serving them so funny... causeat the same tme i felt goosebump with the eyes looking me and asking me they want this watch and that ..
Overall tiring but fun , Sian didn't have time to read up my book .. T-T..
6 mins later...
Gosh need shower now , quite late and feeling ithcy .. Well nights .. <3

Other than my air con being stubborn towards me , i'm literally persipiring like raining cats and dogs .. Anyways i usually don 't like reading long winded , thick books that has no end to it's story line but i started reading a particular intereting book i found in the library (OMG i went to the library) and found something that i could relate to. I read about few pages maybe 1/3 of it now continuesly reading. Title "Luuurve is a many trousered thing..."
Yea the title may sound weird and crapy but hey at least it's funny and enjoyable to read for me i guess :D Tomorrow having a test of remebering what i learn during the past 2 weeks of trail for work .. hohoho i'm working as full timer after trm , So excited ^-^ awaits for my wonderful pay day hahahas.. I'm totally blessed that god given me a great bosses and people to work with .. like my bussiness Manager "nicholas" said if i don't give up on myself he won't give up teaching me . His a very nice boss although he loves joke around some are lame but fun to talk and easy understand. In his 20's if i'm not wrong he has a hidden kiddieness in him as for kevin i find him clueless in the ways it's hard to communicate with him because no subject to talk about and for Jason i haven work with him but i heard his olders among the three of them . They went same school open up bussiness so called FRIENDSHIP i guess hahahas but rating they are wonderful people .. well gotta read abit than fixed the bloody aircon and sleep .. Trm got work... Nights ^o^

A wonderful inspire song by "leona lewis - I got you".
Apart frm the lyrics state" Go ahead and say goodbye,I'll be alright , Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright. When you need a place to run , For better or worse i got you." The song is about sacrifices for love it's meaning ful i guess ^-^ Been very busy with work alot of memorizing stocks and stuff bosses being nice to me and teaching me properly done . Happy belated birthday to Emily , yea i guess it starting to heal the wound .. god bless

I guess everyone is having a hard time in life and it seems to drag us to a black hole. Hold on guys this journey is long and tough, we can make it and believe. Don't stop beliving and don't worry if you are fated we will see each other . sometimes the past would hunt you but you gotta be strong.It's okay to be afraid and get hurt from there we'll be strong , This song is simply breath taking :D Try listening to" Leona lewis - stop crying your heart out".

God bless <3

work is hard , the hardest part remember the product and where it made of and purpose . I'm busy with work . I'll be alright than.. Let time passes and heal each wound . I'll would try my best and learn earn and save money :)

It's quite funny in a relationship where the other spouse stop loving you when they are not hurt that badly than we the vitim themselves. It's show the fear and regret, When you don't cherish the person you called love. Now knowing out of love said lost feeling by him . I continue my journey working , earn money save money, GO out with pals ,party, singing carrer with sid and friend , Counselor and be counsel by josh, meet fai oh yea school next year and persue model too.. I guess loving him sincerely was worth it , i gain and lose at the same time.. losing him and gaining future. It's okay to be sad , grow strong. Thanks so much for everything , dun ever regret since you again the one who said you dun love me. :)

Today company SH for the interview again other place this time the manager a guy and like age 20 plus SO YOUNG lols anyways again SH complaining abt the manager so called "LIKE" me wanting ask my number like that , WHATEVER! Anyways congrats to SH for getting  the job WoHOOOOO!! :) other that mocking me with  manager hounding me i guess everything went well for her now. Thanks god for answering my prayers ^-^TRm busy day.. alot of things to do meet people here there .. hopefully i would not be worn out easily .. Take care nights, God bless..Sometimes when you lose something precious ,Something new would be given,We inted to not cherish the person we care,End up we lose alot..Chances was given but was taken for gratedOne wrong decision , Could cause a fatal destruction ...

After i had along conversation FTF with Sh and emily they went back home . Before that i had an interview with sh along at OTAKE shop than went to filled up an resume at this retail line clothes shop . I had a call that i get in for a try out job by the manager itself next week YAY!!! money money money! Sh wanted the job but i feel abit sad and excite too. First time trying out and as usually she was joking to me that the manager choose me over her because of my looks , NOWAY! looks is one thing how you talk and present yourself confidently is important . KInship it's what we must have ^-^Uhh~ i sound smart hahas.. Anyways that's the story than.. but i pray and hope she would fine a job too ..Of course i'm happpy that my uncle that i treated as my dad gave me the permission to experience working life , love mamu .I'll try my best de i know is gonna be hard but we should not be defeated but charge on till the very last breath.. wohoooo NIGHTSS!

:D

Have a little faith in me , don't give up

As i did with you.

If today was the last day for me to be with you, I'll glad i've been loved

By you.

Noone want to feel out of love they rather want to be loved ..

So all i do is give you my love ..

I love you

(Isn't it sweet , i like this quote)


:D well today had abit of terrible day, on the way meeting Sh but somehow the mrt have technical difficulties . I was so squeeze for 30 mins in the mrt cart . i feel uncomfortable of course becuse some pervert would take advantage to touch you. wll the guy was standing so close to me luckily another lady squeeze than i stand to the other side what a horror.


If you reading this Mushroom , i miss you but i'm not sure if you did . We would have a talk after one week over. Well i have my witness hearing that it took one week for you to think , i hope so.

i'm still deciding should i go for it or not , i might ending up leaving singapore. My uncle is giving me his encouragement to go for it . well i need save money and i'll have to dicuss with the person and maybe i would be missing all my friends in singapore . Germany or Australia is a nice place i bet .. For now need alot of dicussiion and still awaits for this week to be over to talk to my boyfriend if he still treat me like one or just give up the end of this week . we'll see...

Sometimes i think to myself , what's love? what's life?
i had to feel, see and hear the pain each time it shot me down.
Sometime how i wish sleeping peacefully without the pain and hurt around to haunt you down. All this is just a dream we are simply decieved ..
when you love someone it could hurt like a 10000000000 knife stabbing your heart..
I don't know why people change and get influent by people whose seem to have no life and detroy people happiness . Some people are just simply jealous that they can't be loved . Even you love someone for years they may end up being just friends , Why because the person we used to love start to care less..

( my leg cramp goodness!)

16 April 2010 ~

People are still being racist and judgemental. This type of person is the saddess human being i ever met. Just because you are in different race or religion or even different skin colour , we are in 21 century people we are all the same stil children of god. If i'm bad as you say without knowing who i am than look at the mirrror first before you want judge me . Does saying and doing prayers help if your heart is tainted with all this gossiping , you can say all you want , think all you want , i'm not here judge you like you do because only god can judge us . Secondly, i don't like it people leave me hanging and wondering what's wrong with them and saying sorry would explain eveerything ? Come on now , i can't read your mind and you know well i don't like it if you have problems you run away dissapear than come back . What's this ? When are you really gonna learn , ok you want it this way than take it ok. you want be miserable when i'm with you , treating like i'm a block so be it .
Your parents is what you left other than killing yourself with ciggrattes just think of them . You are big enough to know what's right or wrong . You told me once you want suffer ok just do it ok , maybe your mom rights it's not the end of the world yet . Sometime loving you and leaving you hurt equally, you said differently that what you do. I know you well for the past 2 years 4 month dearest, everything is right infront of you but you simply don't bother. Always said i don't understand or look at me like i'm crazy . I'm sorry if i cause you alot troubles and burden . everytime we broke up i never keep that hatered of you but i wish you happiness that all . like they say true love comes once, Chances would run out wether you want make use of it properly or living a lie and lose out to your sickness.

Ulueueeuueeueueueueuueueue!

It's been months since i post anything, and lately a fews month backs having troubles with a girl ..Anyways i cut bangs and look differents .. alot of good compliments thought .. well gotta rest alot things need to be done ^-^

2010!

2009 has ended and it's time to throw aways the past and move forward . I can't denied it that it's been a tough year with my ownselves , my dad and nic but i've learned to be strong and have faith in myself..2010 i pray that it would be a brand new start for my future and my relationship with nic .. getting blessing from both his parents and my uncle is a wonderful gift we can get..Let go of the past and start fresh.. God blesss.. Anyways grats to Uncle Ravi for he turning 26 this year !!Celebrating his birthday in SWESEN !! yum yum!!! xD