Ulala~!
I got the picture for mamu bdae surprise cake , so glad he love it . Seeing that smile on his face means the world to me . Sebbie bdae BBQ rocks other then meeting up with the cast musical peeps and his friends , fai fai , zac , travis , paul , cally all he party biatch there . Eating , drinking and enjoying cam whoring wohooo will post the pic soon :) Sebbie look so aorable and hottt! Take arite on your trip to melbourne hun and enjoy a blast bdae buffet there hahahas !

Tomorrow is mamu bdae , then gotta go off to sebie bbq party mannnn! i need rush at two to take the cake i order for mamu then off to buy sebei bdae present and geek glasses gosh busy busy busy day !

4 more days to my uncle's bde and on the day itself sebbie had bbq for advance bdae too man gonna party and gt drunk this sat :DDD and next week shisha and party too wohooo great life i like :) Single market the best !!

Selfish

People who are selfish and smart always the great survivor and people who simply give in are the loser. 1) Sometimes is so fustrating when you need help is hard for others to lend a helping hand but when they need help you will be the idiotic one who give in . Yea sure you're not asking alot does it give you the rights to scold me for small reason.2) I cannot denied it that money is really really important , the cost of living for sg unforgiving . Everywhere you go is money , no money stay home even at home need money pay water and electricity goodness this is simply too much for us handle.3) Parents ya they suppose to be there for us when the point time when speak about money everyone only think about themselves and make an issue about it . Getting sick of his shit is it fair u being stingy with me when i'm not with you , if i can't get it from you who else i need to ask for . Still schooling and my work part time for godsake . Shit if i've known that this would happen it's better be stingy. 4) Lastly i though about it i want be stingy and keep the saving for my future i can't take it anymore being broke and yes i know i have money for my school but expenses so tight . If being bad helps me to pay my expenses i'll take that chancea who woudn't for our own future especially my future . Why ou care what others say about what youturn out to be , tell them to thier faggot face and say " what you think this country my father country ar , don't need pay free is it? talk so much only" This type of stereo people need a bitch slap come on everyone has thier own dirty laundry.

An ex's cannot be a friends

Why? Because we spent the past with each other and it would be weird to even be friends . Especially the oppisite partner super sensitive then better stay away. Good way to start fresh to stop contacting with your ex's and moved forward . We all have to wake up reality one day that our world does not always revolve around our ex's at all make that perfectly clear. Yea they may dominent our past but not the future , only reason the other ex's can't get over it because of guilt . So to play with your head and think that they are superior but they are not . In that moment young and childish you were everything when i saw the real truth you just someone who i share something in the past and not in the future . Thank you nick , if you're reading this i hope you can move forward then living in the past. Bye!

Recently...

Hmm.. What else i need to say?
Firstly i haven called simon or texted him , so obviously i'm trying to stay apart from him time being . He called awhile ago and ask me how am i.. should i break the news that i don't want to be with him jus let it be and let it fade away naturally.
Second fairoz , i was shock he deleted his facebook acc , he seems to face alot of difficulties ahead him really need to talk to him asap trm. Thirdly what's with old ex's and guys bugging my phone , either calling me late at night and using unknown call ! Stalker much .. Soon i had to change new number because it's becoming a nuisance .Lastly , i have to get myself together i'm getting bad to worse . It's quite sad seeing myself like that , my dear jes jes ask me to wake up and change <3 thanks baobei.
I still keep contact with joshy his going ns soon but police force though , haha he said that when he get a bike i get to ride it at the back seat wohooo can't wait.
There are moment i felt like every hope is gone but i slowly pray to God and that hope came flashing and create a path for me to walk tru . I'm blessed :)

So what happen next?

I met Russell at city hall then off to Swiotel there , ate at sakake sushi , buy chocolate and share alot of laughter but it was not all that . Then next day ate again at the cafe with white wine and pasta serve. I felt happy for that moment but it was not enough at all cause the happiness seem so unreal and fake . Guess i wanted more then all this sense of real love but afraid of stepping to it again . All this i'm facing just a face in life not permanent but the fun of it. To others it maybe sluttish of me but for me it's a way of me finding what i want thte truth to all this mangernizer hahas!
Guten tag(Good night)
Been learning german in progress ..

Luxuries Life

Mony really make the world go round and at the point of time it felt like the world is in the palm of your hand. So yesterday as usual working again i met Russel from german ,simply we went on a date yesterday getting know each other and shared some kisses . Well after worked he bought me to a place to drink white wine and then went off to arab street for some shisha section . It was great the atmoshpere and the mint tea was nice . And also things never got better with the shisha the mixed of grape and mint i like :) ... He was nice knowing him though but we gonna meet each other later for dinner , white wine and don't know what the plan next .

Sex Attraction or it's just an addiction

Have you ever wondered , how perfect would it be like if you have someone by your side spending their time loving you and live happyly ever after but somehow woke up and got Bitch slap real hard on the face that all this is fake. Yea the world is our stage our life , love life, friendships and family plays apart in this so called stage . Over and over again our life dwell into something good or worse in different crissis we face. Life been great getting more work and more money rolling in now :) is just weird that guy are more likely to be attracted to a pretty face then knowing the person , and right after you sleep with them they end up being just about sex and nothing else . The longer you stayed and more intense the arguement and miscommunications builts up .
So we'll get bored and find new toy to play with an open option. But it happen to me just yesterday when i was working at Oc and a guy came up to me somehow a married guy who have kids around 9 years old flirting with me and want pay me for sex , goodness what the world had gone too . I guess marriage is not a bliss for everyone , once in love then got bored find new thing to play with a cycle. So i ask myself a guy whose willing to just pay me $200 for a kiss and 3k for sex is it because of attraction in beauty? Well seeing by the rate of it beautiful woman do get what they want without asking , in the first place god create man and woman for a reason and should we enjoy the pleasure to the max? i guess it's all thanks to capital H.I.M who create us single woman to enjoy life to the fullest . Like lady gaga said it ."God makes no mistakes , we are on the right track baby , we were born this way " Totally agrreeing with her every bit of it. Conclusion , we should NOT be worried about our sexuality and do more exploration with each other , spice things up in our sex life regardless if it's about sex atraction or it just an addiction .