work is hard , the hardest part remember the product and where it made of and purpose . I'm busy with work . I'll be alright than.. Let time passes and heal each wound . I'll would try my best and learn earn and save money :)

It's quite funny in a relationship where the other spouse stop loving you when they are not hurt that badly than we the vitim themselves. It's show the fear and regret, When you don't cherish the person you called love. Now knowing out of love said lost feeling by him . I continue my journey working , earn money save money, GO out with pals ,party, singing carrer with sid and friend , Counselor and be counsel by josh, meet fai oh yea school next year and persue model too.. I guess loving him sincerely was worth it , i gain and lose at the same time.. losing him and gaining future. It's okay to be sad , grow strong. Thanks so much for everything , dun ever regret since you again the one who said you dun love me. :)

Today company SH for the interview again other place this time the manager a guy and like age 20 plus SO YOUNG lols anyways again SH complaining abt the manager so called "LIKE" me wanting ask my number like that , WHATEVER! Anyways congrats to SH for getting  the job WoHOOOOO!! :) other that mocking me with  manager hounding me i guess everything went well for her now. Thanks god for answering my prayers ^-^TRm busy day.. alot of things to do meet people here there .. hopefully i would not be worn out easily .. Take care nights, God bless..Sometimes when you lose something precious ,Something new would be given,We inted to not cherish the person we care,End up we lose alot..Chances was given but was taken for gratedOne wrong decision , Could cause a fatal destruction ...

After i had along conversation FTF with Sh and emily they went back home . Before that i had an interview with sh along at OTAKE shop than went to filled up an resume at this retail line clothes shop . I had a call that i get in for a try out job by the manager itself next week YAY!!! money money money! Sh wanted the job but i feel abit sad and excite too. First time trying out and as usually she was joking to me that the manager choose me over her because of my looks , NOWAY! looks is one thing how you talk and present yourself confidently is important . KInship it's what we must have ^-^Uhh~ i sound smart hahas.. Anyways that's the story than.. but i pray and hope she would fine a job too ..Of course i'm happpy that my uncle that i treated as my dad gave me the permission to experience working life , love mamu .I'll try my best de i know is gonna be hard but we should not be defeated but charge on till the very last breath.. wohoooo NIGHTSS!

:D

Have a little faith in me , don't give up

As i did with you.

If today was the last day for me to be with you, I'll glad i've been loved

By you.

Noone want to feel out of love they rather want to be loved ..

So all i do is give you my love ..

I love you

(Isn't it sweet , i like this quote)


:D well today had abit of terrible day, on the way meeting Sh but somehow the mrt have technical difficulties . I was so squeeze for 30 mins in the mrt cart . i feel uncomfortable of course becuse some pervert would take advantage to touch you. wll the guy was standing so close to me luckily another lady squeeze than i stand to the other side what a horror.


If you reading this Mushroom , i miss you but i'm not sure if you did . We would have a talk after one week over. Well i have my witness hearing that it took one week for you to think , i hope so.

i'm still deciding should i go for it or not , i might ending up leaving singapore. My uncle is giving me his encouragement to go for it . well i need save money and i'll have to dicuss with the person and maybe i would be missing all my friends in singapore . Germany or Australia is a nice place i bet .. For now need alot of dicussiion and still awaits for this week to be over to talk to my boyfriend if he still treat me like one or just give up the end of this week . we'll see...

Sometimes i think to myself , what's love? what's life?
i had to feel, see and hear the pain each time it shot me down.
Sometime how i wish sleeping peacefully without the pain and hurt around to haunt you down. All this is just a dream we are simply decieved ..
when you love someone it could hurt like a 10000000000 knife stabbing your heart..
I don't know why people change and get influent by people whose seem to have no life and detroy people happiness . Some people are just simply jealous that they can't be loved . Even you love someone for years they may end up being just friends , Why because the person we used to love start to care less..

( my leg cramp goodness!)

16 April 2010 ~

People are still being racist and judgemental. This type of person is the saddess human being i ever met. Just because you are in different race or religion or even different skin colour , we are in 21 century people we are all the same stil children of god. If i'm bad as you say without knowing who i am than look at the mirrror first before you want judge me . Does saying and doing prayers help if your heart is tainted with all this gossiping , you can say all you want , think all you want , i'm not here judge you like you do because only god can judge us . Secondly, i don't like it people leave me hanging and wondering what's wrong with them and saying sorry would explain eveerything ? Come on now , i can't read your mind and you know well i don't like it if you have problems you run away dissapear than come back . What's this ? When are you really gonna learn , ok you want it this way than take it ok. you want be miserable when i'm with you , treating like i'm a block so be it .
Your parents is what you left other than killing yourself with ciggrattes just think of them . You are big enough to know what's right or wrong . You told me once you want suffer ok just do it ok , maybe your mom rights it's not the end of the world yet . Sometime loving you and leaving you hurt equally, you said differently that what you do. I know you well for the past 2 years 4 month dearest, everything is right infront of you but you simply don't bother. Always said i don't understand or look at me like i'm crazy . I'm sorry if i cause you alot troubles and burden . everytime we broke up i never keep that hatered of you but i wish you happiness that all . like they say true love comes once, Chances would run out wether you want make use of it properly or living a lie and lose out to your sickness.

Ulueueeuueeueueueueuueueue!

It's been months since i post anything, and lately a fews month backs having troubles with a girl ..Anyways i cut bangs and look differents .. alot of good compliments thought .. well gotta rest alot things need to be done ^-^